I really did think that we’d be together forever. You used to be so wonderful. We knew and hung out with the same people. The cool people. I think common interests and common friends is very important in a relationship. Sure I knew that you were seeing other people all over the place, but I was oh so faithful to you. Even when the others in my life would tell me that you were no good to me; no good for me, I stuck by you. Committed.
Even when I started to notice the little things we notice, in a long term relationship. Your breath wasn’t always that great. You left traces of yourself everywhere, leaving me to clean up after you. I never complained. You’d always been with me, it seems, and I’d tough it out. You always seemed to be costing me money along the way. But that’s what you do in a relationship, right? Sometimes things feel one sided but in the end they even out, don’t they? I’ll admit that I rarely thought about what you were costing me, even when others made sure to point it out.
You became a firm and entrenched part of my life. There was no aspect of my life that you didn’t enter and leave your mark on. Now, there are so many things that bring you to mind. I see you out there everyday, with whoever will pay attention to you.
What I need to know, is why you won’t leave me alone now? It’s been three months. Yeah, I know I saw you that one time, but New Year’s Eve is special. Can’t you move on? I’m trying to and you’re just making it so hard. You make me angry, and guess what… even that makes me think of you. You were always there for me when I was angry. Who do I turn to now?
You need to stop calling me. No more reminders of our time together. We don’t hang out with the same people anymore. I can even enjoy a cup of coffee without you; at least that’s what I tell myself. Can’t you let me go? The first two months apart were so much easier and now it’s getting harder because of your texts and calls.
Enough! You are no good for me. I have nothing left to give you and yet you still beg and plead. In fact, I’m better than you and I don’t need you. That’s what’s killing you, isn’t it? Well fuck you. We’re done. And no, I don’t care what your doing when I’m not around. Sure I’ve seen you going all Cougar on the teenagers at the mall. Being with you makes them look so stupid, but they just don’t realize it yet.
I’m sorry. That was harsh. I don’t mean to be that way, but you’ve made this so hard (ha ha, yes that is what she said). You are tired and old, like your jokes. I enjoyed them back in the day, but no more. I’ve grown up and I’m moving on.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to bring myself to take you number out of my cell, but I’m not going to call you anymore.